Haiti a no go

So I have been talking to people about the likelyhood of my returning to Haiti in the new year. I had it in my mind that I would go in mid-late Jan and return late April. Well it turns out this isn't going to happen so much. You see, they are full-volunteerwise- for Jan and Feb. I really want to be back by early May, and I had my heart set on 3 months or so. Anything less would simply seem like not enough after believeing I could make it that long.
And so, along with this discovery comes a few things. I have to tell some people who were thinking of coming down to volunteer while I was there that I will not be there. I have to keep working at my job. And I have to try and figure out something else to do in the new year. I want to travel. I am 21. I have so much ahead of me yet in this life, but I am getting to that point where I might be ready to slow down, get a place, find a career or go back to school. That means that I have to try and get the travel bug a little more out of my system. Although I do wonder, can you ever be rid of the travel bug once you've been bitten? Me thinks not... in which case I have to tame it, quiet it. And make plans to go to New Zealand or Australia, Ireland or the Netherlands, Italy or Greece, Spain or.. you get the point. Most currently I am thinking the Netherlands. I would see about getting my duel citizenship, I think I am eligible(sp?) for that, and maybe find a really part time job while I am there. Finally learn some dutch. Maybe get in touch with some distant family. But that might not stick. We'll see, I have to figure out someother things first.
So I am a little bit bummed that Haiti isn't working out. Ok. Alot bummed. But I will try my darndest to make it back there anyways. Eventually. It'd be nice to make it before my kids are gone, but perhaps it isn't a reality. Or maybe it'll be just a two week jaunt. We shall see. Only time will tell.
Otherwise, I am still working in Calgary. I have a weeks worth (7) of shifts yet and then I am done here. For good? No idea. They hope so. Not because they don't want me around, but because like anyone, they don't want to keep the 'trouble shooters' around. They want to be self sufficient. Things are improving from when I got here am onth ago. That I will gladly admit. But I will miss it. I enjoy the overtime and the pay check yes, but it is so much more thanthat. I love feeling like I am making a difference. Like my being here is helping. Like people are enjoying my company, but also that they are learning from me. I suppse it is human nature to enjoy that, but that doesn't change that it is how I feel. I don't mind living in the hotel room. Iam becoming buddies with the front desk guy, the graveyard one. I am building friendships with the staff at work, and like always, just as they get there, I shall be on my way. But it was definitely worth coming down.
On a humorous note before I take off. I went to the country bar with some people last night. Now, when I go in Edmonton I almost always run into somebody I know, but I figured since Iam in Calgary, not gonna happen. So we hang out for an hour or so, we are dancing and I see this guy walking by. I look at him and think, huh, that looks like my cousin. A little while later I hear ppl singing happy birthday, to this guy I think is my cousin, and its the rright name. So about an hour an a half after I first see him, he is walking by and I grab his armand am all like "Hey! Hows it going? I haven't seen you in forever! WHata re you up to these days" etc. We talk for like 3 or 4 minutes and the whole time he is looking at me kinda funny. So we part and say goodnight. Well another 90 mins later, he walks up to me with a shot glass and says "Hey!Come have a shot!" I look at him a moment and ask him, "you didn't recognize me did you?" His answer, "nope. I had no Idea who you were"...You know you have a big family when!